Now

Do you remember being fifteen and being consumed with the thought of getting your license? “If only I could drive!” was a phrase frequently spoken by you and your friends. Getting your license meant getting more freedom – one that you have been so unfairly deprived of. Then, you turn sixteen, and that license is yours and all you and your friends can talk about is how you can’t wait to turn eighteen. Eighteen means graduation and adulthood and college. Then, you’re eighteen and wishing you were twenty-one. Twenty-one and wishing you were twenty-three. The list goes on until you stop wishing you were older and start wishing you were younger. But at no point do we sit down and think, “this is good.”

This isn’t a bad thing. I think it’s simply human nature to yearn for something more than we have so long as we know more is an option. Life has taught us not to be content because content means settling and settling is bad, right? People (myself included) speak about their strong loathing towards settling in all aspects of life, be it relationships, jobs, or anything in-between. But why does contentment have to be synonymous with settlement? I googled the definition for “content” and found that content means to be “in a state of peaceful happiness.” The synonyms include words such as “satisfied,” “pleased,” and even “happy.” But nowhere in the definition does it imply that one doesn’t desire more or seek for change of any sort. It simply means that despite where you’ve been and where you’re going, you are happy with where you are.

There are a lot of things I want in life and I don’t think I will ever stop looking forward to the future. Or, when I do stop looking forward, I’ll be looking back. But I hope that there are times I can remind myself to look right where I am and smile because where I am is good. I still don’t believe in settling and I will never build a permanent place of residence at where I am in life, but that doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy where I am. Life is full of so many wonderful things and even if it could be better, that shouldn’t take away from the fact that it’s good now. 

 

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